A note when I find it difficult to reach you, to drown in your darkness, to be ur one more light, and more, and more....
This is my way to keep beside you. Remember, you couldn't see my eyes, hold my hands, caress my hair. But we both know where our naked soul is. Laying in the deep sea no one could dive, no one could understand, no one could see. That's where you could feel the warmth in this cold bloody world. I want you to feel this strength.
I'm tired looking for what I deserve. Deserve is not something given. Deserve is what we created. And I don't wanna looking for this anymore. I find you, and I will make it one! We both deserve each other.
It might not end as we wish. It might be too good to be true. But it's worth trying. You are worth to fight for. You are worth to fall for. I quit searching, and start working on us.
So here I am.... Embracing you.... My arms would be the walls you lean on when you feel the emptyness.
Feeling hurt is unavoidable when you fall for someone. Let it be.... Otherwise, you couldn't call it love. Beautiful things require risks and sacrifice. Promise me, down let yourself down. Keep your head straight. Don't feel guilty. Don't regret it. Don't feel sorry. Don't make it a burden. I'm here to look after your soul.
Yogyakarta; 28 May 2018; 1:00 AM