Weird huh?
I'm pretty well-known with this raging bitch reputation for years.
Am I fall in love? NO
Do I get tons of money? NO
Am I crazy? NO
Thing is, I'm still that one raging bitch you would die to kick my ass.
However, I realize one thing lately.
There's been a long-time struggle I endure to develop my own confidence, fight my inner demon, build my self motivation, trying not to kill myself, living in somewhat perspective that revenge and negativity is the best motivation.
This struggle is so freaking exhausting.
And once I reach my balance, my "konsistensi sistemik" if you're an Ayu Utami book reader; somebody comes and brings me down;
You know what?
GO FUCK YOURSELF!
You don't deserve my attention.
You don't have the right to ruin the happiness I'd die fighting for.
See what's in here? I say YOU, but the key isn't YOU. It's ME, MYSELF.
I have the choice not to give a shit.
Because I value my long-time struggle.
I thank for friends, family and strangers who support me.
And for you who's feeling down or spreading negativity, I'm not trying to motivate you.
I'm not trying to make the world a better place.
I'm still that egocentric, raging bitch, self-absorbed person.
One day, I may be the one who spreads the negativity, whether I intend or not intend to.
I'M JUST TAKING CARE OF MYSELF, SO PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AS WELL.
@christalov
21 December 2017; 8:51 AM